Sex deprived!

I had a dream that I was the main attraction of some sort of sex auction/performance art in what resembled a swap meet. I was on a sort of platform in the middle of the walkway where people can either stop and watch or pass by. I had a clipboard with names on those who were bidding and paying to have sex with me. There were a couple of names and I remember thinking "Great, I've made a profit today!"

Then my ex-boyfriend came onto the scene, and we were just about to go at it on the platform when I woke up all hot and bothered.

Despite having satisfied my needs with my battery operated bliss that very night before sleeping, I knew by that dream that what I'm really missing is the real thing. While I enjoy very much being single, I realized that one of the beauties of a relationship is that you are likely to take part in some sort of sexual activity with your partner at some point during the week. And thats what I need. Somebody who is obligated to sleep with me...well not obligated, he'd have to WANT to! But you get the idea.

I know now, it has been too long since I've had sex. And unfortunately, being a woman, it wouldn't be wise to just hop in bed with anyone who happens to be available for the night. Despite how times have changed, in the long run it is still unacceptable for a woman to have sex like a man! I HATE that double standard! Women have needs too ya know?

Its times like this that I wish I had a decent fuck buddy. That way I can keep it on the down low and without the complications of a relationship, no muss, no fuss. Oh don't get me wrong, I am not at all opposed to being in a relationship. But lets face it, I have never been able to hold on to a guy for longer than 8 months. So needless to say, I have yet to have a very successful one. The only real success I have with men are my companionships with Brandon, Ian and Jessie.

Oh well...for now I suppose I'll have to deal until somebody worthy comes along. Even if I want to I can't go and hump just anybody. I am worth far more than that!

...stupid boys and their stupid boy penises!